Thursday, June 21, 2007

Sometimes You Just Gotta “Be”

Yesterday I woke up and was so exhausted I talked myself into working from home. A few hours later I realized that my connection was too slow and I wouldn’t be able to get anything productive done from home. So I started blogging and researching on the internet. Before I knew it, it was 6 pm and Tyler was on his way home. I had successfully done nothing the entire day. No shower, no laundry or dishes, not even yoga, just nothin. So I started feeling guilty that I didn’t go into work when there is so much that I need to get done, that I had this day off and sat in bed all day long watching bad daytime TV and surfin the web.

If you didn’t already know who I am let me introduce myself. I am the Queen of Justification and I can rationalize almost any behavior I do to make myself feel better whether it’s right or wrong. Sometimes it’s a bonus and other times it’s a flaw. I’m not sure where this one should be categorized, but watch me go.

For me, every once in awhile I just need a day where I can just be, just exist. I don’t have to do anything if I don’t want to and if the day is a blur with no accomplishments than that’s ok. No pressures, no appointments, no expectations or things to analyze. It’s a mental holiday. And I think that’s ok. The timing might not have been right with the rest of the world, but I have to allow myself those days and not feel bad about them.

Today I am back at the daily grind and I feel the pressure mounting for the next few work weeks. I love the company that I work at and I love what I do, but I know that I am going to have to put in some overtime and I am not looking forward to it. This will happen once every couple months or so whenever we let out a release. If anyone is curious about where I work they can check out this video that is a short advertisement for the software I help create (test actually).

So I know that for the next month or so I won’t be able to justify any vacation time, so yesterday was my one day off for awhile and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

See? I feel better already.


Molly said...

I am NOT a computer person and I could not get the sound to work on your video...but it looked great. I used to teach Pre-School and know more about Putt Putt (a car that a lot of our software was based on) that I ever wanted to know!

I take those days husband's co-worker calls them mental health days...we all need them!

Have you discovered Paolo Nutini...I LOVE listening to his music to chill out (I have taken some notes from your list!) His music is upbeat but very soulful!

Take Care

Aimée said...

Thats weird, the sound works on my computer. Anyone else have problems? Sorry if you do.

I have never heard of Paolo Nutini but I just googled him and found some videos of him singing his songs. I love them! I love coming across cool artists I have never heard of! Thanks so much :) I am going to have to get some of his songs. He really has a cool unique voice! I am glad you like my play list. I originally made a cd with those songs as well as others for a friend of mine going through a rough patch and realized how much I needed them for myself collaboratively so I really like them.

Aimée said...

For anyone else interested here's the link I found:

Anonymous said...

I know how you feel about procrastinating. This so debilitates me. I have done this all day and I have three uni assignments with due dates edging closer.

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