First, let me say thank you to everyone that sent me well wishes and good vibes for my trip to Guatemala. Overall I am really glad that I went. It was truly a trip of a lifetime that helped strengthen my marriage and my relationship with my kids.
The first three days were unbelievably PERFECT. I had no anxiety whatsoever. I enjoyed everything.
The land there is absolutely gorgeous
and the people are so humble, kind, and hard working.
The food was delicious and I was eating soooo much! I kept marveling at how well everything was going. It was too good to be true. It was awesome! I was actually starting to think I may gain weight on the trip.
We had to do a lot of driving and by a lot I mean aLOT! And the roads are constantly twisting and turning around the mountainside and I am prone to getting carsick. Everywhere we were going was at least an hour and a half away from our hotel. So by day three I was so grateful that I was feeling so well and happy.
Then came day 4. I don't know if I talked myself into it because of how happy I was, but I woke up with anxiety. I was able to shake it off and still enjoy my day. But everyday after that I woke up with anxiety until I got back home. Also, by day 5 I started getting car sick (which for me is a headache right behind the eyes and feeling nauseous). So out the window went my appetite.
But I decided instead of letting it get the best of me I would just accept that this is my body doing its thing and I would just have to tough it out for a few days. Which I did.
I am glad the first few days were so amazing because I was able to experience what a vacation should be. And looking at the silver lining for the rest of the time- it's good to be reminded that I can do hard things. And that I can still enjoy life WITH anxiety.
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6 comments:
Aimee, how wonderful that you enjoyed your holiday and even though you had difficulties on the last few days I'll bet it didn't affect your families enjoyment (which is always my worry). Did you take any medication with you or did you do it without?
I have always wanted to go to Guatemala! Seems so relaxing and lovely. I have been following your blog for quite some time now. I really enjoy it. Thanks.
Hi i moved out to Bulgaria a few years ago and found the change in lifestyle helped cure a lot of my issues
I think being in a relaxing and lovely place may have helped you cope with the anxiety. Glad you were able to enjoy your trip and not let it get the better of you when it hit. I think you are overcoming a hurdle.
I think your attitude toward the anxiety you felt at the end of your trip is commendable. It is definitely true that how you look at things can change how you experience them. I hope it helps others realize that yes, you have anxiety, but that you can still enjoy your life! Thank you!
Just ran into your blog randomly when looking for some comfort online. Weird, right? I've suffered with anxiety/panic disorder for many years and have been on a multiple-year calm. It's been amazing. Well.. It's rearing it's ugly head again because my hubby won a trip for us to go to Australia and we're leaving next week. I've been doing my hypochondriac thing for a few weeks and didn't associate it to this trip, but now I'm thinking that I started a cycle that my body was more used to many years ago. Anyway.. It was nice to read about your mantras and how you can enjoy the trip AND have anxiety. Thanks for being out there for those of us seeking comfort.
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